Bedtime

So last night I went to netflix to pull up something to watch while me and the hubby lay in bed before we go to sleep just like we normally do. I asked him what he wanted to watch and he said watch whatever you want because i'm tired. So I picked my movie looked over at andrew and he had his eyes closed so I started watching my movie. About five or so minutes into my movie HE KICKS ME! So our conversation went as follows.
Me: What was that for?!
Andrew: I'm not sure what your talking about?
(I go back to watching my movie and he kicks me again)
Me: I think someone wants attention...
Andrew: I'm trying to go to sleep, shhh watch your movie
(Continue with the movie and he again kicks me)
Me: Seriously? Come on you want my attention
Andrew: I want to cuddle wiff to you so I can go to sleep. Pwease?
Me: Why didn't you just say that in the first place instead of kicking me?
He went to sleep very soon after. Lol
I just thought it was the cutest thing.

While I'm on the subject of Netflix I would just like to say I love it!
But I do blame it for my broken heart and crying for the past two nights.
It has this wonderful feature where it suggests movie for you based off of movies you have liked.
So I spent the last two nights watchings movies about a boy and a girl from different sides of society who fall in love and have this epic story line and then the guy dies.
Ugh.

Well thats my rant for the day.
Have a wonderful night or morning!

I'm back.

Sorry it's been so long since I last wrote!

Thanksgiving was great! We went and saw my dad's side of the family for a short and since everyone finished eating early because they had other family to visit we decided we would go see his parents on the way home. When we got there everyone was about to ride over and see the house his brother was buying. Let me tell you it was beautiful! I wish I had picture's to show you but I lost my charged up battery for my camera in the process of leaving that morning. After we all saw it we went back to his parents and just hung out and laughed the whole time. I really do love my In Laws. Oh and everyone liked my food!

Last Saturday was horrible. I have this overwhelming fear of throwing up, scares me to death. I will fight the urge until I can't anymore. And its been three years or more since the last time. But Saturday out of nowhere I had the urge, fought it and fought it until I gave up. Passed out in the closet which you have to go through our bathroom to get to because I didn't want to wake up Andrew. About 6am he came and found me and got me back in bed to cuddle with me and then I spent the next three or four days laying in bed feeling queasy. The apartment was a mess! So yesterday after talking to someone about a job and then running my hubby to get his prescription filled I came home cleaned out everything finally went through all our stuff that we had stored away and threw away some stuff and donated a bunch of other stuff.

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Gobble till you wobble.

Thanksgiving!

Yes, a fatties favorite holiday :)

When I was about ten years old my mother met my step father and she became a Jehovah's Witness. That meant no holidays at all besides my dad giving me presents on Christmas. I didn't get to participate so now that I can I'm super ecstatic! I get to cook a few things for tomorrow where we are going to my dads for thanksgiving and Andrew gets to met my dad side of my family. I'm excited to start our own family traditions.

What I'm going to cook

Green Bean Casserole

My Favorite dish.

It wouldn't be thanksgiving without some Pumpkin Pie!

And then some Apple Muffins

Can you tell I like sweets?

: D

He is baaccckkkk !

I had the hardest time sleeping last night knowing that seeing him was just passed the next sunrise. I had all these thoughts and emotions running through my head. And nothing I could of ever possibly dreamt about could ever come close to the way I felt when he came off that bus and I saw him with the biggest possible smile on his face. It was an overwhelming and wondrous experience. Now we are laying in bed while he sleeps next to me and the smell of him surrounds me and i've never felt so at peace. As children when we think of home it's a place you can point out on a map, a house on a street and over these past months he has made me realize that a home is neither of those things. My home will always be wherever he is, no matter where that may be. A house may be called a home because at the end of every day its where we go to be together and as long as we are together we are HOME.

Job Interview

So today I had my interview, group interview that is. I thought that a group interview would be more intimidating then a single interview but I loved it! I didn't feel like I was trial the whole time. Made me feel more at ease about the whole thing. I also ran into somebody I kind of know through our parents! So hopefully we can hangout sometime because as I've said before I know nobody up here! Then did some shopping for me and the hubby and I'm the type of person that cannot stand spending more than $20 on a pair of shoes and that is expensive and pushing my limits. So needless to say I was ecstatic to find the cutest boots at Charlotte Russe 50% OFF!

So after my day it is off to unwind in a hot bath.

Hubby gets back Saturday!

My Job as a Wife

So finally I have gotten an interview. Yay me! It's tomorrow. I realize that this is most likely a seasonal job and to get out of this apartment would be wonderful. But I have already made the decision that if they are not okay with the fact that I won't work any time past seven then I won't take the job. Why that time? Well for one that is the time my husband gets off work and two I would like to be home in time to cook and sit down and eat with my husband, the highlight of my day. My husband doesn't quite get this concept. He says "it will be okay baby I can make you dinner if you work late." But me as a wife that is MY JOB; to cook clean and take care of him. And no seasonal job for minimum wage is going to take that away.

So that's my rant for the day.

I'm going to try to do these a lot more.

Also my hubby gets back in 3 days!

Being Apart

So my Husband is in the Army National Guard. And recently got orders to go train in Florida. This would be our first separation from the time we met except for the two days after we met and one drill weekend.(After our first drill weekend apart we hated not being together so either he drove home or I went with him.) Now he has been in the Army many years, Seven or eight years I believe. So he is very used to leaving for long periods of time. But this isn't the point of this blog, the point is how I have coped with him being gone. And by the time he gets back on November 13th he will have been gone for a month! And I know that women deal with year long deployments all the time and I feel like such a wimp for having a hard time with him being gone only a month. But this is the hardest thing I've had to deal with.
From the time we met we have been inseparable and then this! Every single day just feels like blank space, wasted paper or something. Like i spend all my days doing nothing wondering around in a haze and by the end of my day that has felt like a week I don't even know what I did with my day. I feel the closer it gets to him getting home the harder each day gets. I have all these emotions and anticipation built up and that day just can't get here fast enough. He has became my best friend. The only one I can talk to. I have few friends and none of them understands what its like to be a young wife, step-mother, and to deal with this army stuff. I have one young married friend but she moved out of state with her husband and we don't talk much. So if your reading this and have any advice or words of wisdom or maybe simply your going through something similar I would love to talk :)

Side note: We just moved to a new town where I know nobody and don't have a job quite yet, but not from lack of trying.