So my Husband is in the Army National Guard. And recently got orders to go train in Florida. This would be our first separation from the time we met except for the two days after we met and one drill weekend.(After our first drill weekend apart we hated not being together so either he drove home or I went with him.) Now he has been in the Army many years, Seven or eight years I believe. So he is very used to leaving for long periods of time. But this isn't the point of this blog, the point is how I have coped with him being gone. And by the time he gets back on November 13th he will have been gone for a month! And I know that women deal with year long deployments all the time and I feel like such a wimp for having a hard time with him being gone only a month. But this is the hardest thing I've had to deal with.
From the time we met we have been inseparable and then this! Every single day just feels like blank space, wasted paper or something. Like i spend all my days doing nothing wondering around in a haze and by the end of my day that has felt like a week I don't even know what I did with my day. I feel the closer it gets to him getting home the harder each day gets. I have all these emotions and anticipation built up and that day just can't get here fast enough. He has became my best friend. The only one I can talk to. I have few friends and none of them understands what its like to be a young wife, step-mother, and to deal with this army stuff. I have one young married friend but she moved out of state with her husband and we don't talk much. So if your reading this and have any advice or words of wisdom or maybe simply your going through something similar I would love to talk :)
From the time we met we have been inseparable and then this! Every single day just feels like blank space, wasted paper or something. Like i spend all my days doing nothing wondering around in a haze and by the end of my day that has felt like a week I don't even know what I did with my day. I feel the closer it gets to him getting home the harder each day gets. I have all these emotions and anticipation built up and that day just can't get here fast enough. He has became my best friend. The only one I can talk to. I have few friends and none of them understands what its like to be a young wife, step-mother, and to deal with this army stuff. I have one young married friend but she moved out of state with her husband and we don't talk much. So if your reading this and have any advice or words of wisdom or maybe simply your going through something similar I would love to talk :)
Side note: We just moved to a new town where I know nobody and don't have a job quite yet, but not from lack of trying.
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